Those of you who know me are aware I've usually got a healthy appetite.
I've been on a LOT of steroids, and this means I've got a really healthy appetite. A few nights ago, a nurse informally diagnosed me with "steroid hunger attacks." It was very late at night, early morning, and the nurse scrounged around for food. She returned with some energy bars and junk food and donated a cup of fruit. I wolfed them down in order to get back to sleep.
We have to place food orders when the kitchen is open. Ten minutes before they closed today, my mother called in to make sure I'd have enough food for the evening. She started going through the list of items we'd decided on: a Malibu burger, tomato soup, peaches, grapes, cottage cheese, milk. I have some dietary restrictions they have to look out for, low-fat everything at the moment. And all the details: lettuce, tomato, ketchup, light mayo... Soon I realized my mother had been on the phone for close to five minutes, ordering me food! It sounded completely absurd, like she was making a prank call! All this food for one person, as if one person could possibly eat so much food. I started laughing and soon mom was laughing on the phone and she was having a tough time not laughing into the phone herself, trying to complete my meal order like a reasonable person and not some kind of prank caller. We laughed really good and hard.
What makes it even better is that as my mom was on the phone, calling this in .... I was eating. I was eating a whopping double order of meatloaf with a bunch of vegetables, with rice and gravy on the side. A really insane amount of food!
It's midnight and I just ate a big tofu burger, a bowl of fruit, applesauce, a bowl of ice cream, an angel food cake muffin, and a milk. We've stored away a sandwich, some kefir, graham crackers, milk, and various other things in case hunger keeps me awake tonight.
Tomorrow I'll be experiencing steriod withdrawal. That affects people differently. I might feel congested, I might feel tired and sluggish and as if I've been hit by a truck, I could experience arthritis, or nothing could happen. I'm interested in seeing how my body reacts.
Meanwhile I've had a really good day. Walking today felt better than it ever has. My vision got a little better. I feel great. I'm overjoyed by the wonderful constellation of people in my life. I feel blessed. Thanks for all your love and support.